Timing

I keep thinking about the passage of time.

We can make time seem large. I still have almost a month, or 1/12th of a year before I turn 18. 

We can make time seem not so large, but not small. I have 16 days until I turn 18.

We can make time seem miniscule. I have 384 hours until I turn 18.

But what happens when we reach the time for which we're hoping? Once I am 18, time is still time, life is still life and I have to keep living it. Deadlines, memorials, dates, events, and appointments come and go, but no matter how much we've anticipated or dreaded the final time, time continues on. 

I have 384 hours before I turn 18. I have 5 months of school left before summer, and 8 months before college. I have 5 years before I should think about being married, 7 before I need to have a career, and none to start living.

I don't want to count time, speed it up, or slow it down. I just want to swim in it, enjoy every moment in it, and reflect on how well spent it was.